coming of age...

"We'll all become adults one day... and nobody will even think we were kids once..."
- Takamoto (Honey and Clover)

I'm afraid...
Very afraid...

I cannot imagine myself being an "adult" and having to accept all the burdens and responsibilities that come with being one...

Its so scary just to think that one day, people will look back at you with a bitter stare which reads : "How can you be doing this? You're no longer a kid..."

I never want to grow up.... not because I have a deprived childhood or anything like it...
I just don't want to grow up because I don't want to accept the responsibilities of being an adult...

when you're a kid, people say "oh, he's just a boy... let him be, he's just having a bit of fun"
when you're a teen, people say "oh, he's just being rash and hot-headed... its just a phase of growing up!"

but, when you're an adult, people will give you bloodshot stares and cold looks when you do something that isn't "adult-like" or deem fitting of one..



I don't really deem myself as the "creative" sort of person...
but deep down inside, I'm really a different sort of person that people see me in real life..

I'm just a kid... unpredictable and emotion-prone...
but I've left my innocence of youth behind be a long time ago...


to face the world, head on.... I've yet to find the strength and courage to do so...

thats why, I'm so easily bullied sometimes I guess...
I'll just listen and I'll do...

If people give me a negative comment, I'll most likely be too afraid to return to the task...


coward.. ain't I?


if... my reality was my dreams... I'll make it so beautiful, that... no one will ever need to grow up...

ever again....